2021.12.09 00:26 rowan11b Finally got the Arsenal SAM7sf about where I want it
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2021.12.09 00:26 cheemsgyaru Is there any book where the main character/narrator is a freak or insane but not a bad person?
I love reading stories where the narrator is some kind of reject, misfit, insane, whatever. But most of the stories like this will be something like American Psycho or Tampa where they’re just a peice of shit/rapist/murderer.
Is there a book where the MC is a total bizarre, insane social reject but all in all not a bad person?
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2021.12.09 00:26 Overall_Ad_1911 With the remake of Kotor does that mean Revan has now became Canon
2021.12.09 00:26 Repulsive-Choice-572 Struggling
Tw: mention of suicide
Hello again everyone, I'm so sorry we're in this group together. This pain is unbearable. My son was born sleeping on Oct 16th at 37wks 2days. At my very last appointment I told the OB he wasn't moving as much, he wasn't worried about it.. he was more concerned why I wouldn't get the Covid Vaccine.. (he asked multiple times throughout my pregnancy, I told him no everytime) the very next day I called and told the office he isn't moving and they tried to reassure me that baby was "perfect" yesterday but I could still go to L&D... I arrived there, and they couldn't find his heartbeat.. everything went blurry.
When my 6 weeks was up, my fiance and I decided to try to eat more healthy and exercise. He exercises alot, while I'm struggling to find motivation. All I think about is my son. For the past couple of days I've noticed that I just sit for a long time throughout the day, crying, and having thoughts of suicide. I tried talking to my fiance about it.. and he brings up how I'm not doing my part by exercising and he's tired of the laziness, that the only way to feel better is to take care of myself. I haven't been doing my part and he's been picking up alot of my slack around the house too.
Today, he said some pretty hurtful things to me.. he yelled at me saying "I left HER (previous marriage) because she couldn't have a baby, I'm going to leave you because YOU can't have a baby"... I started hyperventilating and sobbing and he just goes "What the fuck is wrong with you?"
Yes. As bad as that sounds.. he's struggles with anger issues and the loss makes it worse. I'm not trying to make excuses for him because that fucking HURT. He's never spoken like that to me. He apologized to me a dozen times and he felt horrible but honestly I just feel so, so fucking empty. I don't know how much more I can take. I've been bawling my eyes out almost nonstop. I just want that reality back to when we were happy, and excited together when I was pregnant.
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2021.12.09 00:26 matrixen01 Amazing show, anyone know of a tracklist/playlist with the classical pieces from the show?
Just finished the show, despite the slightly disappointing ending, it was still beyond phenomenal, the world needs more films like this. Now I'm wondering, though, anyone know of a tracklist/playlist with music, especially the classical pieces, from the show? I've tried searching for a playlist on youtube but no soundtracks come up :( the music was amazing, really wish I could find the full soundtrack somewhere or at least the name of the composer!
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2021.12.09 00:26 Col_Sandy_Fries_6 New player - struggling with C5(I think) on trumpet?
Hi, new player and new to the subreddit. Been playing since this august, still find it difficult to hit the c above "middle c" (concert Bb) consistently. How long does it normally take for that to become comfortable and consistent?
I also tend to tire out my chops pretty quickly when playing, practice for 15-20 mins a day and then I’m torched. Has been this way since August. Is this normal for a new player?
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2021.12.09 00:26 laidbackagain How can I accept that I have needs, and healthily meet them?
For most of my life I've isolated myself from other people. I felt like an outcast, never able to belong anywhere, and this feeling persists today, especially as the pandemic has rolled on and, having graduated high school, I perceive all of my peers moving on with their lives while I'm still at community college in my familiar bedroom. For the longest time, I tried suppressing my need to socialize. I wanted to be fully detached from society, yet internally I still felt like I wanted society's approval so badly. Now, thanks to watching Dr. K's videos, I'm slowly inching towards a state of self-acceptance and away from the self-loathing that used to predominate my life so much, and rather than just ignoring it, I'm beginning to acknowledge that these needs have to be met somehow.
But another part of me just doesn't want to have these needs at all. I don't want to feel like I need to socialize. I view a lot of society as having really bizarre and archaic preconceptions about people's roles in life. Gender roles in particular have always been a source of angst for me. Why do men have to be stoic? Why do women have to be the emotional ones? Why are men the givers, and women the receivers, and a ton of other stereotypes? Inside, I really fulminated against all of this. It doesn't help that my family loves pushing this down my throat, especially my older brother, who constantly brings up "being a man". I don't want to be man, I want to be myself. Yet I feel like if I want to reintegrate into society, I'll have to play the game, so to speak. Want a girlfriend? I'm gonna have to ask her out, do the moves, be what they want to see. I'll have to remain stoic, even though it's objectively emotionally draining: if I cry, I'll just alienate everyone and lose everything. Return to zero.
I have to conform in a sense to all of these strange rules just so that these needs are satisfied, when I feel it would be healthier to be a balanced human being (who doesn't repress, but isn't overly emotional) instead. Why can't it just be that way?
Sexual desire... that's another need I don't want to have. I know it's part of being a human, but I've done a lot of harmful shit because of an inability to control myself. It's been another source of self-loathing, especially with the knowledge of how much sexual crime is committed by men. What I'm noticing is that I have two modes: either I try completely erasing it (by not masturbating), or lean into it. The problem with the former is that then, everything that is remotely sexual makes me irrationally angry, facing the powerlessness. The problem with the latter is that I end up objectifying people. I end up watching porn, or viewing women strictly through that lens.
This horrible mentality has caused me to do so many regrettable things, but I don't know how to divorce sexual desire from objectification. How can sex coexist with... empathy?
It's really just a matter of balance, but I don't know how to do that. I either push, or pull. I want to keep hold of myself, and not fall into society's trappings. But I'm so lonely, and deep down I'm not happy. I drown out the pain by compulsively browsing the internet, and by fantasizing about stuff, but it's never fully gone. At the end of the day, all I'm reminded is that I'm not going anywhere. I'm not. Everyone is moving ahead but I still feel tethered to my bedroom, but why even leave? What could there possibly be outside that is worth going there?
My libido especially makes me ashamed to even be human, and I wish I could cut off my dick or suddenly wake up asexual, but there's a lot of other things that contribute to my feelings of alienation from the human experience of those around me. So much more I could talk about, but I think this is long enough.
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2021.12.09 00:26 Middlefingers251 H: 2500 live n love 8. W: offers
2021.12.09 00:26 throwaway1928384444 15 ng/ml cutoff
2021.12.09 00:26 treegreezer What am I doing wrong?
2021.12.09 00:26 austinhein_ Had to make a wallpaper for my first 6 NFTs 😋
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2021.12.09 00:26 Ryansmelly Hey everyone. Need some help getting perfect fit sleeves.
Don't wanna order the wrong sleeves. But I'm going to get those magnetic card holders, and need perfect fit sleeves for my cards to go into before going into the magnetic card holder. Any recommendations?? I'm looking them up but can't seem to find any with the names that I've seen people suggest. Don't wanna order the wrong size. I know 35 pt. But maybe some recommendations from Reddit will be a bit easier for me. Lol Thank you!
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2021.12.09 00:26 CatfishDinner8 My fallout on Xbox is laggy
2021.12.09 00:26 YTGAMERMAX70 Buy
2021.12.09 00:26 Zanchub PC won’t turn on
Hello everyone, as the title says my PC is fully built and I was so disappointed to find out that it doesn’t power on. This was my first build and I thought I did it very good but clearly not. I shorted the power switch and I got it to come on, but what does that necessarily mean? Also my cpu fans would come on but my case fans wouldn’t(I don’t think I plugged them in right). Can anybody please help?
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2021.12.09 00:26 PalmfulOfNothing Hit 1000 Viewer minutes! More Yakuza 7 tonight too!
Momentous occasion! What would be more momentous is beating this before 2021 ends like I promised, har har har. https://www.twitch.tv/steezles
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2021.12.09 00:26 Poptarts284 How scary is the journeyman’s exam, really?
I’m a small-town registered electrician in NE Wisconsin, USA. Been working with a master for 4 years now and it’s time to go for the test this spring.
I feel comfortable with residential code. We do a lot of vacation mansions (latest is 800 single phase with a 70KW stand-by generator) but there’s plenty of small remodels and service work mixed in. The only commercial I’ve done is kitchens and some very limited 3-phase work. I doubt I will ever touch a high voltage transformer in my career and that scares me.
How much should I plan to study? Are any online study guides worth CE credits worth it? Just looking for some guidance. Thanks.
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2021.12.09 00:26 Huskrdas MSG for the win. Great night to be there. Go Ass Hail Satan
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2021.12.09 00:25 Jetblack28 Zipang on top of XPEL
My whole car is wrapped in Xpel Ultimate Plus PPF. It does add a bit of gloss, but it's nor hydrophobic like Ceramic coating.
I know there are PPF coatings out there like Gtechniq HALO, Kamikaze Graphene surface film, Gyeon Film. But the main problem is that those coatings doesn't last very long.
I have ZIPANG and Graphene Surface Film from Kamikaze sitting on the shelf.
I would like to apply 1. Base layer: Graphene Surface film 2. Top ayer: Ziapang On top of Xpel
Has anyone had any experience with this layering method?
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2021.12.09 00:25 Jasminella_217 Ohhh amazing. It's relaxing time. Enjoy the video SPIDER-MAN ART
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2021.12.09 00:25 Firephyz Tough Moral Situation Poll: Who's Right? [ Post 2 ]
2021.12.09 00:25 squarenailsalvage White oak 2x8s from 1800s Illinois barn. Very clear, very few knots.
2021.12.09 00:25 SaltBet4890 My very cool grandpa in the 1950s holding a fish, smoking a cigarette, with a book tucked into his pants and cigarette pack in his sleeve.
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2021.12.09 00:25 StarfyIsTake Stable FPS on Android
today they dropped a update on Android and the FPS felt abnormally stable I dunno if it was just me or if they actually decided to optimize the game what about you all?
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2021.12.09 00:25 NewsElfForEnterprise Should You React To Quarterly Results?
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